Bucky.
We need to talk. Now.
June 2012
He does not deserve your care and consideration Steve. You are a passionate man that has feelings for others that work hard. He does work hard in reality. That is why you like him correct?
But if he does not acknowledge you I think you need to run right up to him and say to his face how you really feel and be obvious. You used to be blunt Steve I think that is better for you and him.
It is what I think. I saw the archer apologise to you. They want you back on their team but that is only because you left. When you were there what did you get? You and I should go solo on this.
The Avengers are good people there is nothing wrong with seeking solace in others arms but they are getting obscured vision. Their duties cast aside while they focus on each other.
I still love Natasha and I see her with Clint. There is not much I can do. I have accepted this as fact but I will make sure she focuses on missions and duties and puts her archer to one side. Not dumps him just focuses on duties more. If she is happy with him then I have accepted this.
Do not doubt yourself Steve. It will bring you down.
He’s never really truly been cared for that’s the thing Bucky. Maybe Tony would change if he did have someone, I mean he has Pepper but… Well you know, it could be different if he let me into his life. But that’s just me being a dreamer, I’m not going to think much of it. It just hurts, and it hurts even more to see him throwing his life away.
So you’re going to help keep some of them in line? I guess you could try, I mean that’s what I’ve been trying to do all this time so good luck to you if you do manage to do it.
Doesn’t it hurt though? Seeing her with someone else, though I do admire you buddy, for letting it go like that. You’re clearly the bigger man in that situation.
Amelia + Steve || Reminisce
His determination seemed to have grown. Growing more the longer he sat here. But she agreed with him and that made her feel better. “No, I do agree Captain. I don’t think we need to be smothered. I think we need to be given space. I’m sure I could deal with everyone on my own. If only I was given the chance to.” She sighed. She was sure she could get over her stress if only she was let out. “Who knows, maybe we can both find a way out of here.”
It was his yearning to help and go outside from the place that he seemed so trapped in that only increased his determination. He smiled as she agreed, “Well, I might have a little help on getting out of here now, would you be interested in breaking the rules alongside me or are you in here with ties?” He asked, knowing for well he had shaken off what kept him bound to staying here.
What are you planning to do now?
Go somewhere where I can do some good. I’ll find a way out of here and maybe assemble a team that would actually appreciate my motives, as selfish as that sounds.
I get it Clint but I’m not your Captain anymore.
There’s no point trying to justify yourself with me, I get it, okay?
Do you?
Do I what? Get it? I said I did, Clint.
Just making sure
We need you on the team, Cap.
That’s not going to happen, Clint, I’ve made up my mind
Look man, whatever’s been said, I have no problems with you. I think you make a great captain and although I misjudged certain things I didn’t mean you any harm. Despite what everyone seems to think.
I get it Clint but I’m not your Captain anymore.
There’s no point trying to justify yourself with me, I get it, okay?
Do you?
Do I what? Get it? I said I did, Clint.
Look man, whatever’s been said, I have no problems with you. I think you make a great captain and although I misjudged certain things I didn’t mean you any harm. Despite what everyone seems to think.
I get it Clint but I’m not your Captain anymore.
There’s no point trying to justify yourself with me, I get it, okay?
That was not comforting in the slightest, soldier.
Then I’m sorry, Cap, I really am
Just drop it troop; It’s over now.
Steve, man, that’s not why I did it.
I’m really not that superficial trust me.
it’s just easier to say that. But it’s not the truth.
Why did you do it then, Clint?
Because you needed to let off steam, you needed comfort. I don’t know fully why and I don’t need to. That’s your business and you’ll share if you see fit.
But I only two know ways to offer any kind of comfort, one is to let you beat the shit out of me, which you didn’t take, and the other is sex.
I’m not good with words, Cap, can’t do advice. So I do what I can.
That was not comforting in the slightest, soldier.
You’re right it’s really starting to nag at me. I mean first with these… ‘feelings’ for Tony, despite him just throwing it back in my face. I question myself every day in regards to that. And secondly… Well what happened with Clint. Now Peter’s upset with me and I’m trying to do my best for him. Bucky, I’ve got no idea what to do.
Tony Stark? Do you think he even notices your feelings? I question them too. Why would you even like an arrogant jerk like that. You hardly get a long on the battle grounds… But you do work together well. When you agree.
As for the Archer. Ignore him. He’s talk. He’s using you like he is with Natasha. For romantic and physical purposes to make him feel wanted.
You are better than that.
I don’t know why I’m feeling like that or what he’s done to deserve it but I certainly want to get over it. It’s not like he’d acknowledge it, he’s too busy sleeping with every woman in this joint, Buck.
Is that what you really think? I don’t see why he’d even want to do that but at least I’ve got your opinion on the matter. Guess I’ve gotta watch my back when doing things like that, thing was, I didn’t see it coming and I thought… Well, it’s stupid, forget about it.
You think so Bucky? I mean, really? I’m starting to doubt myself here.
